i just need to rant August 17, 2008

how come people write post in blog n claim that it is not something you should read. come on, this is the www space, if you post it up, then you should expect readers. and now u lock up ur blog, fuck you lar, so chicken. what for you use all those hard words. don’t again emphasize on we purposely that and we only think about our profit. Have you heard about the story of a man and a monk? And the monk ask the man to think of something that best describe each other. and the man says the monk is a piece of shit to him, but the monk thinks that the man is Buddha. And you know what, because the man’s brain is full of SHIT, so he sees everything as shit. if u think we only aim for profit, it’s actually you who aim for profit, you bastard. and why i want to do hide from you guys?? if i m hiding, why am i sending it to everyone? u think i am so stupid to do that ah?? if i wan to hide, why i still send to you?? i might as well keep it confidential. people will find out, why i so stupid to send out things that people will definitely find out?? so you think you are stupid enough to me, so that i will make a mistake “on purpose” and you won’t find out??? oh, that’s such a joke. Dun say that we insist of doing it our way, it is just a suggestion, i do not say that will be the final version, because i know i will make mistake some where, so i need people to correct me. and in fact someone do corrects my mistakes and i really really appreciate that. i am going to come out with a better version, of course without the part you bastard don’t like.

i am going to emphasise again. I AM VERY SORRY ON THE MISTAKE I MADE. I SHALL BE BORN WITH MORE SENSITIVITY WITH NUMBERS. I WILL NOT MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN-THAT IS TO WORK WITH YOU AGAIN(if i have the choice)

lastly, fuck off, you old man.

clean August 13, 2008

today is a very special day to me.

its my BIRTHDAY!!!

that was my last year, my life and the blog i had over the other blogging platform. so many things that i did not record there, happy events and gatherings, my emo times, sad things happened. it was a very fruitful year, not because it ended well, but because i learned a lot and most importantly, i know myself better now.

i do not know how different i am from the past. i heard a lot from my parents, aunts and uncles about me in my younger days( when i am a baby). i have my primary school teachers said i am very quiet in primary school, they are so surprise to see me talking myself out when i went back to pay them a visit during secondary school days. then, i was this student who was too active in co-co until my teacher had to tell me to cut down on my activities. i was once members/ ex-co of 4 societies, i bet they are people who beat my record, but that was too much for me. i had regular practices for choir, competition and performances, outings and meetings of societies, phone calls after phone calls at night to discuss about our “club business” =p that was the good old days

then it was time to make a choice for life. I am glad i listen to my dad, how can i forget i told myself when i was a little girl that i have to believe in my parents decision. he made me study form 6, he made me study science. i know i take a longer road, but that was not a wrong thing to do. i came what i am now.

sometimes being people is so difficult for me. whether to live under people’s expectation or to live to my own wishes. i tried out a lot, too many that i failed many times. i came back with wounds and cuts and bruises. i did not become stronger, i do not know why. i suddenly realize there are so many things in life that we cannot take control, things that we cannot expect too much but yet, we want too much. but in the other hand, there is this tagline saying that nothing is impossible. so, how?? it’s just too confusing, sometimes.

time has come, i should have learn to clear up everything. i should know my life, i should take control of it. i should do whatever i can to mend the mistakes i made, the mess i create. i made my choice 1 year ago, when i was thinking too much. but since it was the choice i made, alongside with so many other people, all of us shall make it happen. why are they people who can make it, why not me? i am enough of myself saying too much, i want me to prove to myself.

i believe in me, because it is me.

it will be a clean start. all over again.

happy birthday

Gold Gold Gold Ale Ale Ale August 12, 2008

*updates: choong hann lost to Chinese Taipei player Hsieh Yu-hsing yesterday with 14-21, 21-17, 21-18 *

Beijing Olympics is here!!!!
so excited!!! this is the pride for thousands of Chinese no matter from China or overseas..although i am not able to watch it live in Beijing, but i m still so excited to see the athletes perform from the magic box at home =)
today i watched the gymnastic men’s team..China got GOLD!!! they are so so so good, the swings, the jumps, the turn, everything..i specially adores one of the team member name Chen YiBing, he got such a nice smile, so warm and bright, so happy because he won..*claps*

chen yibing

and i must say, i m so so so so proud of Malaysia’s badminton players…
Lee Chong Wei is in the quarterfinals!!!!yeah.. we are now one step closer to the medal!!!
i watched the last part of his match with singapore player Ronald Susilo, aww, he do play well, it has been a long time since i watched he play, i didn’t watch the last Thomas Cup, but i missed his match with Lithuania’s Kestutis Navickas, but never mind, he won anyway!!! so glad that he won!!!

lee chong wei

hopefully Wong Choong Hann will win tonight too, then we have more chance =)

so happy after he beat Taufik

you know what my brother tell me this morning? He says “Malaysia one gold, one silver, one bronze……………..also don’t have” adui, the joke is actually quite funny but yet feel so sad to hear it..but we have the hope to get a medal, the games is not end yet and we still have some players on the field.

Must support Malaysia!!!Malaysia for GOLD!!!Malaysia Boleh!!!

must be optimistic =)
photos from olympics official website, wikipedia and the star online

the weirdo friend August 10, 2008

I rarely blog in this language like this one lor. Although my English no good, I still try to blog in correct English, try I mean only try, not guarantee 100% correct, so sometimes still got many problems here and there one.

Why I blog like this today le?? Because, I am going to write this post for one special person, and this person has very good English demand one, so I must do something contrast, then it will show how good is his. This is the first time I do this type of post, other people want also haven’t got the chance, so you must be very happy, not happy also must pretend happy, must give me face, ok??

today i m gonna introduce you to one of my friend. this friend of mine le, i know him not very long time only, almost 3 years lar. i know this guy from school choir in lower 6, that was a half year with many things happened, most of them are not very happy stuff, we go here and there and talk bad about people at people’s back, kaypoh here and there one. i wonder people involved in it will ever want to think about it again now. Anyway back to topic, i was introduced to him by kikshou, since we are the only few 6th former in the choir. then i also dunno why i friend him, so many leng zai out there, but why him har? he also not very leng zai anf super macho, ish.

So, as a good friend, i am going to talk bad about him in my blog, this is very rare chance, fast fast thank me* hold gun in hand*. this fella always bully me, always kik me in MSN, so I dun like to chat with him in MSN one, he always give me name, one time even give me one 10 words nickname, if he is not that far away, I sure go beat him one, all I can do is scold him. so I sm sure he sneeze a lot when he MSN with me one, used up a lot of tissue, not environmental friendly at all.

He hor, also very kikshou one. then there’s this one time, i saw his father brought him lunch box after school, he was form 6 that time you know!!!so freaking scary, i thought he dunno how to buy food from the canteen. you know what’s his reason??he say it was cheaper that way, he do not need to use his money to buy lunch. oi, u think petrol no need money ka?? Then hor, after that he throw away the box but keep the plastic bag, because he say much reuse the bag, adui, act environmentalist wor..

This fella got a blog one. He is very good at writing very very long punya post, read until my head also dizzy. He summore put his camwhore pictures in his blog. Not lenglui, also din wear bikini, nothing to see one, cheh.

Hahahahahaha…..enough of fooling around, must be serious.

Today is Mr. KWOK YUI’s birthday(no, kwok is not his surname). He’s turning 21 today*throw confetti* he is now legal to go gamble in Genting and legal to get marry(must invite me to yum zao,OK??)so he must be very happy today. and the things I wrote above is just to ejek you, cause you are very nice to ejek one, I let u ejek back when I birthday,OK??my birthday coming soon. *claps claps* I don’t hate you de, I love you very much one(not that kind of love, don’t misunderstand)

Remember the realmart thingy I posted that day?? He say he also want a gift. So here’s yours:

Philips Flash audio video player 8GB
y?? because it has the same name as you lor =)
and it can make a very good company when u wait for bus.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND ENJOY MY GIFT!!!!

ps: remember to say thank you wor

to be or not to be August 7, 2008

I was talking to an auntie this afternoon. She told me her husband and her are not going to let their son do Form 6 after his SPM. She said her husband think that it is a waste of time to do Form6(f6), and there is no use wasting the 2 years doing F6. They are going to let him take up other pre-u course.

Actually a lot of juniors asking us seniors should they take form 6. Kikshou got this answer I think is fairly acceptable:” If you are the study-material, then it’s ok to take F6, if you are not, then it is not very advisable.” This is what he told his junior.

A lot of people never consider form 6 as their pathway after form 5, a lot means a lot more than the people doing form 5, at least that I can see. Lesser and lesser people doing form 6, lesser and lesser classes are open for form 6 years after years.

As I observed from my batch, people who don’t do F6 have their reasons. Some of them get JPA and go overseas. Not many went for matriculation. Some are very sure what they want: many of them went Aussie or NZ, some went private college for different pre-U courses.

I heard a lot of people telling me that F6 is a waste of time and it does not worth anything. And they also comment that F6 is very tough and it’s not worth studying too. Outside people have much negative comments about F6, letting F6 become a poison in your education road.

I must clarify those myths that people have about F6. Form 6 is not that bad as people think.

#1 STPM is very tough!!! I know people say that STPM is one of the toughest exams in the world. But did u know who start that?? How did he know?? Is the statement still true for STPM now?? It’s true that STPM is on a higher level than some pre-U course, but I don’t think it is fair for people to be scared about STPM because of the myth. If STPM is very tough, us Malaysian will be at the very top of the class no matter where we go, but why some of us are now below par in uni?? I remember my teacher told us that a 4As in STPM doesn’t mean anything in Singapore(quite a number of my batch mates are over the causeway) and they can’t help agree with him when they came back.

#2 STPM does not have well recognization over the world. Come on, you are the one who say STPM is the toughest, why are the universities not recognize the toughest test??? You tell me. Some say that STPM are for those who want to be doctors and pharmacies and those who want to study in local universities. If I want to study overseas, I have to get my ass as far as possible from the evil exam. Who told you so?? Quite a number of my friends are studying overseas, even myself. Me and my roommate are from STPM. I have friends studying in the US and UK after STPM(they have to take SATS and TOEFL, of course, but this means that what STPM students are competent in other exams too) I have friends studying in Japan and even Taiwan. The largest gang of Form Sixers outside Malaysia will be over the causeway, in Singapore. Most of the universities we go are in top 100(I didn’t check out one by one), who says STPM is not well recognize???

#3 Studying Form 6 is not worth it. I remember Mun told me that she was regret because she was doing form 6 in the beginning of Lower 6. But she never stop to find her way out of this. Then she heard about the scholarship thingy and went for the interview, and tada, she got it!!! After that she say she don’t regret liao, because she won’t meet the person who told her about the scholarship if she wasn’t in F6 and she won’t be doing as good as she did now. It was the same as me. If I wasn’t doing F6 after my F5,if I insist to go to private college, I will not be the person I am now. I may become someone better, I may become someone even worse, I may end up somewhere else. But something I am very sure, I won’t meet the friends that I met in F6, the friends that brought me a lot of laughers. I may not be a very friendly person, but I am glad to get to know you guys. You get different life experience with different path you take.

Form 6 or not. It is just a choice in life. You have to figure out what you want in life. What are the pathways to the goal? What are the obstacles you face? What are the ways to solve them? What are the alternatives? A lot of thinking, planning, researching and asking around will help.

Form 6 or not form 6, it is not a big problem.

FUCKEE, I GOT A GIFT FOR U!!!!! August 5, 2008

there are so many unhappy things happening these days, so i want to do something happy, to make my friend happy, and then i might be happy too.
nuffnang got this contest call the nuffnang gift ideas contest.
i got to give gifts of my choice to fellow nuffnangers..i give something to a friend, then she’ll be happy, when she’s happy, she’ll tell me she’s happy, then she’ll thank me, then i am happy. happiness is simply this simple.( i like this, me so wise..ahahaha..)

i never try online shopping before. i know this is the new trend of shopping, people who don’t shop online sound so outdated. but i love going out shopping, especially u have a friend coming along. chatting while shopping is one of the best way to release stress. you still feel very happy no matter what you bought. i like to hold and feel the item i am going to buy, it feel so insecure to buy something without knowing it, its like blind-marriage. maybe this is because i rarely buy those very expensive thing where their quality is 101% guaranteed. so, this is the 1st time i am shopping online from the nuffnang contest partner, Real Mart and the goods you can buy or redeem on the site are from well known brands, i guess it gives more confidence to the customers. i am not trying to say good things about them, but u see what they got.

OSIM iGoGo

OGAWA Handheld Massager S300-OG300

not bad, right?

Anyway, i have to come back to my topic.
i got something i would like to give to LF a.k.a. fuckee.

TADA…Victorinox Vivante – For Her

i will force you to wear it every day to class
when u buckle your watch, you will know its time to buckle down and work hard.
this is what you need now, right??? me so good to choose this for you =)
when u look at the watch, it will remind you to hold on to every seconds and minutes u have to study study and study. then you will also remind me..hehe..

another features that i like about the watch that makes it perfect for you
its WATER RESISTANT until 100m
you can even wear this when u r snookering and diving in the deep blue sea.

so, u like it anot???

must say u like, OK?? if not, next time i dun cook for you..